it's so frustrating to know how you should act, or feel..but not to act or feel the way you know you should. i am constantly rebuking myself lately, oftentimes in the midst of some negative thought or exclamation. i have so much  growing to do, sometimes i get almost disgusted with myself for the way that i act-or feel like acting/reacting to situations. lots of lessons being learned right now....one thing i'd really like to just learn & be done with lessons on is beating myself over the head with my shortcomings. heh. i really have a hard time tossing those things away and moving on at times. 

i think this is one reason i love working with kids so much-they are so forgiving. (even if they don't go for the "forgetting" part...which almost makes the forgiving that much more amazing.) they give second chances freely...and third, fourth, and fifth chances. :)  one of the older girls who i have in the mornings and has been with me for years, has an on going list that she keeps in a notebook that she always has with her. it is her "FRENDS and ENEMYS" list. :) i am normally in the "FRENDS" column, but occassionally, if i have need to correct or redirect her, i end up on the "ENEMYS" side for a few days. i always eventually make it back to being a "FREND" in a day or so...depending on the severity of her irritation toward me. it's kind of funny, because she has a spot where she only writes my name in each column..in pencil, of course. haha

(today i was put on the "ENEMYS" list...oops.)

the greatest commandments:

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. And love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:30 &31

this is what makes me smile:

♥ 5 year olds.